This journey has taken me to some strange places, as well as brought me face to face to a reality I never wanted to fully admit existed. But on this side of fear, after pushing through, I'm very excited I did. When you press through your original boundaries and borders, you find that what you thought would happen to you doesn't. You also find that faith is not so fragile as often believed.
When I stood in the pulpit and fully trusted my bible to be the predominant truth, I didn't understand how people who were polytheistic could function, or even what would make them believe in anything other than the Most High, El Shaddai. To me, when you reach the big kahuna, why go any further or fall backwards. Yet, we taught about the helpfulness of angels and how we could call upon them. We taught about the harmfulness of demons and how we should banish them and cast them out. Though Christianity claimed monotheism, it was actually quite polytheistic because nature itself is and there is no way to write it completely out of any extensively collective text.
So, when I decided to go back as far as I could and start over, who did I discover but Inanna, Great Mother. Inanna, with correspondences in almost every ancient civilization. Inanna, one of the most beloved deities of Sumer, goddess of love and war, fertility, beauty, desire, sex, and also political power. This great One who encompassed all of the most important aspects of life from reproduction to government, and by some accounts even death as she was also known widely for her descent into the lower realm. Something about this name always called out to me, even when I tried to connect with the Ishtar and Astarte versions of this deity. I'd always loved Aphrodite since high school mythology stories. But no matter what, I always ended up full circle back to her. And with good reason because there was a message in it.
Inside all of us exist dualities that play out through our lives, decisions, and the reputations that come along with it. We can make a good decision and be well thought of because of it, judged to have more moral turpitude than we actually have. We can make a bad decision and be disliked or even hated for it, written off forever though life will continue well beyond that point. People are quick to judge the actions of people to get a picture of who others are. Problem is, we can be both light and darkness, good and bad, coy and brash, love and war. Truth is, the only time you get an accurate picture of anyone is when you can peer inside them and get a picture of their heart. Many bad decisions have been made because of genuine love, often mixed with a great deal of ignorance. Many good actions taken out of wicked and harmful motives. Thus actions are not the fullness of the story.
Some strive to be all good and in that striving become anything but. If they accomplish something of a pretty decent life, they become diametrically opposed to those who have not reached that same level, become judgmental, harsh, condemning, unloving, unforgiving. In doing so, they effectively hurl themselves back down to the lowest depths, but often do not know it.
Some rebel out of pain and do everything they can to embrace evil. But no matter how much evil they do, like in the case of serial killers, they somehow end up doing some good to someone somewhere at some time. They may hold the door for someone. Purchase birthday gifts for those in their families. They take pictures for the couple on the boardwalk. They feed a dog or cat, take in a stray. They cannot help it. Even with their best effort, they cannot be all evil no more than someone else can be all good. So what does that mean?
It means that balance is where perfection is, not in striving toward the elusive end of the spectrum. It is on the 0 in the middle of the axis with negative numbers to the left and positive to the right. In that place, you have overcome the need to work for divine approval or fleshly accolades. You are beyond good and evil. You are in the one place that neither exist, making it as pure as the moment of original creation. At the 0, there is no duality and hence no judgments and no bondage. Inanna represents this idea so clearly in the fragments of stories about her. Because of them, researchers don't know what to say about her. But also because of them, we have a great lesson. We don't have to choose between -9 and +9. We ARE both and every number in between, and there is nothing anyone can do about it.
Join me on Youtube to get more videos to help you awake, ascend and get into your life's purpose. Much love and power to you. Ase'
When I stood in the pulpit and fully trusted my bible to be the predominant truth, I didn't understand how people who were polytheistic could function, or even what would make them believe in anything other than the Most High, El Shaddai. To me, when you reach the big kahuna, why go any further or fall backwards. Yet, we taught about the helpfulness of angels and how we could call upon them. We taught about the harmfulness of demons and how we should banish them and cast them out. Though Christianity claimed monotheism, it was actually quite polytheistic because nature itself is and there is no way to write it completely out of any extensively collective text.
So, when I decided to go back as far as I could and start over, who did I discover but Inanna, Great Mother. Inanna, with correspondences in almost every ancient civilization. Inanna, one of the most beloved deities of Sumer, goddess of love and war, fertility, beauty, desire, sex, and also political power. This great One who encompassed all of the most important aspects of life from reproduction to government, and by some accounts even death as she was also known widely for her descent into the lower realm. Something about this name always called out to me, even when I tried to connect with the Ishtar and Astarte versions of this deity. I'd always loved Aphrodite since high school mythology stories. But no matter what, I always ended up full circle back to her. And with good reason because there was a message in it.
Inside all of us exist dualities that play out through our lives, decisions, and the reputations that come along with it. We can make a good decision and be well thought of because of it, judged to have more moral turpitude than we actually have. We can make a bad decision and be disliked or even hated for it, written off forever though life will continue well beyond that point. People are quick to judge the actions of people to get a picture of who others are. Problem is, we can be both light and darkness, good and bad, coy and brash, love and war. Truth is, the only time you get an accurate picture of anyone is when you can peer inside them and get a picture of their heart. Many bad decisions have been made because of genuine love, often mixed with a great deal of ignorance. Many good actions taken out of wicked and harmful motives. Thus actions are not the fullness of the story.
Some strive to be all good and in that striving become anything but. If they accomplish something of a pretty decent life, they become diametrically opposed to those who have not reached that same level, become judgmental, harsh, condemning, unloving, unforgiving. In doing so, they effectively hurl themselves back down to the lowest depths, but often do not know it.
Some rebel out of pain and do everything they can to embrace evil. But no matter how much evil they do, like in the case of serial killers, they somehow end up doing some good to someone somewhere at some time. They may hold the door for someone. Purchase birthday gifts for those in their families. They take pictures for the couple on the boardwalk. They feed a dog or cat, take in a stray. They cannot help it. Even with their best effort, they cannot be all evil no more than someone else can be all good. So what does that mean?
It means that balance is where perfection is, not in striving toward the elusive end of the spectrum. It is on the 0 in the middle of the axis with negative numbers to the left and positive to the right. In that place, you have overcome the need to work for divine approval or fleshly accolades. You are beyond good and evil. You are in the one place that neither exist, making it as pure as the moment of original creation. At the 0, there is no duality and hence no judgments and no bondage. Inanna represents this idea so clearly in the fragments of stories about her. Because of them, researchers don't know what to say about her. But also because of them, we have a great lesson. We don't have to choose between -9 and +9. We ARE both and every number in between, and there is nothing anyone can do about it.
Join me on Youtube to get more videos to help you awake, ascend and get into your life's purpose. Much love and power to you. Ase'
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